Turned 30 a couple of days back......
I had half a mind to expect a partial doom and gloom, and perhaps some epiphany of sorts....or some enlightenment that I would expect to be entitled to upon entering the new decade of life.
But instead.....it turned out to be mundanely normal.
Yes....no fireworks, no sudden appearance of fine lines, so sudden outburst of strands of white hair, no sudden realization of exponential decrement of functioning brain neurons.
Very eerily normal.
So...this is what turning 30 is all about.
I kinda blame Hollywood for my unrealistic expectations.
Sheesh.....and to think the anxiety of the week leading up to this "momentous" turning of age was nothing more than my own arrogant, self-important projections onto self.
Turning 30 was just another everyday occurrence.
Life really does just goes on.
I was recently asked by Mr. Anonymous about my resolutions for the new year....with entering a new age-group category and all.....and as I was about to regurgitate from my mental list of resolutions.....when I got past the number 1 and number 2 on my list, I paused.....
Mr. Anonymous asked if I was just starting to make up the list there and then.....
(I sometimes do have a tendency of doing that....)
It wasn't that.
I actually had a proper list made.
But as I was re-telling it, I realized that none of the resolutions in that list (I have 13, by the way) carried any weight of importance aside from, except maybe number 1 (yes, passing my first year post-graduate exam is of utmost importance!!!!), and I should really sit down and come up with just A FEW realistic resolutions that would, somehow, better my life in some way or another.
I thought about it the whole entire night.
(ok so that was a lie...I just thought about while I was stuck in traffic while driving back home after dinner)
I've decided aside from not failing the exam.....the only thing that I really want achieved before 2013 rolls around was to attain the virtue that is PATIENCE.
If you know me well enough, you would know that PATIENCE is never one of my strong points.
As a self-diagnosed Type A personality sort.....PATIENCE always seemed overrated.
I HATE waiting at the traffic lights (and thank goodness have not yet been stopped by traffic police for ignoring the red lights on a regular basis), I HATE waiting in queues, I HATE traffic jams...I HATE waiting for anything!!!!
Waiting and doing nothing is the worse human invention ever!!!!
(although I know many would gladly disagree to the above statement)
But since bidding adieu to my 20s, I figured I better get myself some of this PATIENCE before I head into mid-30s and REGRET starts being the regular occurring THEME in my life.
So....how do once attain PATIENCE?
Gosh I wish I knew.
I'm currently open to pointers....so feel free to feel that you can somehow contribute to the development of my PATIENCE.
But try not to take too long to come up with the advices.
I'm still very impatient in that sense!!!!