Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I am now an INJURED runner.
Here's something else even MORE "amusing".....
It's 10 days away from my 42km!!!
Well, I don't know about you...but I think freaking out is too subtle a word to describe how I am feeling right now.
Try....GOING TOTALLY BALLISTIC AND OUT OF MY BLOODY MIND!!!!!
I'm WAY beyond hyperventilating.
I've probably exhaled every single molecule of carbon dioxide out of my system, that it is bloody amazing that my brain is even functioning.....
(and probably once I'm much saner LATER, I might look back on this post and realize that the low carbon dioxide level is making me, literally, NUTS!)
In fact....I'm so WAY out of rational that analgesic cocktail sounds like a pretty darn good idea at this point!!
(and since I'm at it, might as well try to get some morphine out of the palliative-care guys!)
And if you are interested.....YES, IT IS MY LEFT KNEE!
It has been hurting a bit before.....(maybe more than just a bit)
And today while running (I actually planned to run 16km today....bye bye last long run), somewhere between 3-4th km, I suddenly felt a sharp, stabbing pain to the outer edge of my left knee.
I was immediately involuntarily halted to a walking pace.
The pain was immediately relieved and thinking that it was probably nothing, I returned to try and run again.
Within 3 seconds, the pain came back with such vengeance that I thought I would start bawling, like a kid who first fell from her bike on first day of learning to ride.....(yes, some physical traumas are THAT traumatic that it is forever etched at the back of one's mind....oh c'mon, I was like, FOUR!!!)
I had to walk (no limping...pain not present when NOT running) back to my car.
Aim for 16km run shattered.....just like my confidence in crossing the finish line for the 42km WITHOUT crawling!!!
Here's another "amusing" fact.....
I'm now officially a DEJECTED runner.
To all injured runners out there.....I totally understand how YOU feel.
I know the emotional AND psychological pain of knowing your body has somehow failed you.
The ache of knowing that there is a HUGE possibility that your aim cannot be achieved.
The sadness that accompanies the knowledge that you will not be running for the next few days.
The emptiness that befalls you.....since you have so darn much free time from NOT running and you don't know what to do with it!
Suddenly I feel like giving another confidence boost to the economy by going shopping!
(Maybe I should just get one of those compression tights that I've been thinking about......although I'm not sure when my left knee is agreeable enough to test-run those tights...)
Maybe it's ALL in my head!!!
Like...perhaps the conscious (knowing marathon is 10 days away) and the subconscious (knowing that I MIGHT kill myself running a distance I've not sufficiently trained for!!!) are not in agreement and due to such psychological conflict, I'm projecting my subconscious fears onto the BODY, by producing somatic (bodily) symptoms....ie, LEFT KNEE PAIN!!!
I wonder since i've sort of "became self aware"....if I could still run tomorrow pain-free!
(Note to self: I have to STOP reading Eckhart Tolle's books....it's screwing up my mind)
Yeah.....or perhaps I should really get myself something elusive, called 'A LIFE' other than running.
p/s: Thank you dear blog readers for tolerating such nonsensical banter. You guys are THE best!!!!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Today we shall talk about SPI belt.
SPI stands for SMALL PERSONAL ITEMS...(I think....)
I've been seeing the advertisements in Runner's World magazines for quite a while now.
Couldn't find it in Malaysian stores and I keep forgetting to search for it when in Singapore.
Anyway, according to the tiny advertisements in the magazines, this “amazing” small pouch of a belt “DOES NOT BOUNCE OR RIDE!” (their words, not mine), just perfect for runners to stash their car keys, spare change, gels/gu's, cellular phones, mp3 devices and perhaps a comb or a compact mirror to freshen one up whenever spotted a really hot runner that you may be possibly attracted to running towards you...(well, to each their own fancy....but pulling the last 2 items out mid-run somehow may appear a little....odd)
It had also made special appearances on CNN, TODAY show and The Rachel Ray Show!! (whoopee!)
Right out of the plastic bag that the belt came in!
With NOTHING in it....
Packed with my phone and keys
Honestly, I don't know why I bought the belt.
Call it an impulse buy......(never question a female regarding the impulsivities of shopping. The female brain's “pleasure area” is highly activated whenever thinking or planning about shopping....so PLEASE thank the female next to YOU for strengthening the economy of our country! By the way, you're welcome!!)
So I got my very own SPI belt from Mr. Choi for RM70......do click on this link to view his site.
Appearance wise, it is rather inconspicuous looking and for a while there I thought I would be severely disappointed with the product.
So yesterday evening, I decided that I just HAVE to take this belt out for a test-run to see what the whole fuss was all about.
To test-run the belt, I recruited my cellular phone and my car keys....both I consider essential 'small-personal-items'.
And mind you, my phone is the Nokia E71 (and not those tiny, cute-sy ones that don't take my much space) and together with my car keys are a pretty bulky twosome.
Both items fitted well into the tiny pouch compartment.
I strapped the belt over my waist....just like I did the hydration belt.
(you may try belting it around my hip area at the level of the A.S.I.S. [anterior superior iliac spine] or garjon-less version would be the top tip of your hip bone...I tried that with the hydration belt and it just bounces like a Jell-O party...so no way am gonna do the same with the SPI belt)
It was bloody hot yesterday evening.
Normally too hot to run.
But I'm doing the run for SPI belt's sake....(I can't help but to dramatize things)
So I ran.
And the belt.......well......it stayed put.
It really 'DOES NOT BOUNCE OR RIDE!'
I mean, yes, you'd still feel it at your lower back as you run (it's not gonna disappear and become weightless just because it appeared on The Rachel Ray Show!!)....but it's just minimal inconvenience....sorta like the convenience store only having 100-plus and NOT Gatorade!
It stayed put (more or less) for the whole 5km......and stayed on put despite the heat causing me to sweat buckets! (totally unrelated but I'm just saying....)
In conclusion...the test-run of the SPI belt was GREAT!
It sorta lived up to it's claim of 'DOES NOT BOUNCE OR RIDE!'
So it's my hard-earned RM70 well spent.
Perhaps next time around, the SPI belt will do an appearance on Oprah!!! Now THAT'S the big gun!!! (I swear, once it's on Oprah.....every Tom, Dick and non-running Harry will be sporting one of these babies!!!)
I TOTALLY recommend the SPI belt......I can foresee it coming in very handy during long runs and races.
And for YOUR information, this is a totally un-bias test-run of a product.
I did NOT generate the aforementioned luminescent glowing review without first hand experiencing the SPI belt's “amazing ability” to 'DOES NOT BOUNCE OR RIDE'....(I'm trying really REALLY hard to rein in the sarcasm but it's not quite working)
And as long as I don't get paid to do this write up....it is categorize as UN-BIAS! (and I don't get paid)
Maybe next time around, I'll write up about RoadID ('BE SEEN WEARING IT').
Or if another impulsiveness arises and I find myself purchasing one of those 2Xu compression tights, I'll do another UN-BIAS write up as well!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
So I'm just got back from my first long run in quite a while.
(I think the last time I did anything more than 10km in a stretch was back in Safra Army Half Marathon...)
I did a 16km.
(I have to work at 9am)
OMG why didn't I start running long runs earlier?!!!?
(whack self at back of head)
I felt like a flat tire.
Make that shredded flat tires that you see coming off lorries and trucks on the highway sort.
Legs....what on earth happened to you guys?!
I actually walked the last few kilometers back to the car.
It also dawned on me while walking that the 42km is less than 30 days away.
This is FINALLY the time to face reality.
No more hyperventilating.....coz I don't think removing more carbon dioxide is gonna help much at this point in time.
So hear me out.
This is the NEW plan....(sort of a plan anyway)
I've decided that I'm gonna be OK with walking most of the 42 km
I've decided that finishing time is not gonna matter.
So what if I finish it in 7 hours or more....(I really did wanna beat PG's first marathon time initially)
In fact, I'm gonna be a pretty strong contender to Hazel's Milo from last year's BIM.
Wow.....after stating all that, I do feel a whole lot lighter and less stressful about the 42km.
I'm just gonna go......have fun.....take LOADS of photos.....meet people.......did I mention HAVE FUN?!
Oh yes....and I wanna go diving after!!!
Not bad....I face reality pretty well!
I'm not sure if I mentioned that I was getting really tired lately....past few weeks actually.
Don't get me wrong. I'm still extremely motivated to run.
It's just that my runs these days lack the quality it use to have.
I mean.....I used to feel strong during my runs....now I'm lucky if I run past 8km and I STILL want to continue.
There used to be days that after completing a 10km run, I'd STILL want to keep running....I miss those kinda days!
I used to feel semi-fast (with moderate effort).
Now wanting to run fast requires so much more focus and self-butt-kicking.
I used to feel refreshed. I now feel exhausted.
I don't know.....maybe the running twice a day is really getting to me.
That or the idea of 42km is more daunting than I give it credit for.
Whatever it is, I'm gonna NOT worry about mileage for now.
I just want to feel......like how I USED to feel.....about RUNNING.
Running used to be like a exciting LOVER....now running feels like a nagging husband that you try to avoid by working late!!!
(not a great metaphor but it's the best that I can come up with at the moment)
And now...to get ready for work!